Look Mom!!!

5 ultrasounds and 3 estimated due date changes and we finally got to see our little baby on the screen today! It was such a joyous moment as I laid there with Ashlyn in my arms on the bed and she pointed to the screen and said "look mom, it's a baby in your belly!" 

I found it very hard to even look at the screen until I heard the positive words that there was in fact a baby to see. It made it a million times more special hearing it from Ashlyn as she blurted it out before my doctor could say there was a baby and a heartbeat. It is truly amazing how smart little kids are and what all they realize that we don't give them enough credit for. 

After seeing my little baby today I found I was able to breathe and relax a little more and be happy for this miracle growing within me! 

My estimated due date is July 24th and I couldn't be happier!

Things You May Not Know About Me

So recently there were the posts going around Facebook for others to share facts that most people don't know. I never got around to mine so figured I would do mine now. Will be a great way for some of you to get to know more about me!

1. I have 3 brothers, a step sister, and a step brother.

2. I have always wanted to be preschool teacher when I grew up but I am now going to school for medical office administration.

3. I have been to Disneyland once and my wish is to take my kids there at least once when they are old enough to remember it.

4. Raw potatoes with salt are amazing! Thanks BFF for the new addiction to that.

5. I used to be able to wear a sweater no matter how hot it was when I was in highschool. Even when it was 100 degrees out!

6. I am secretly starting to miss Washington.

7. My daughter was born c-section and I so badly want a hbac or at least a vbac this time. I feel it was jipped out of the experience of labor and I do not want that to happen again.

8. I have always wanted a son and have my fingers and toes crossed that it happens one day!

9. I am a horrible housewife. I dislike doing dishes and folding/putting away laundry. 

10. I have always had a very close relationship with my mother and I hope we always will.

11. My great grandma Ruth was and always will be my greatest inspiration. I am sad her and my kids will never get to meet each other.

12. I love to read and crochet. I have not done either in about 6 months. 

13. I hate needles but love getting tattoos.

14. I am a Facebook junkie.

15. My favorite past time is volleyball.

16. If I could travel back to any time era it would be the 1940s or 1960s. I think it would be neat.

17. I am becoming more and more of a "crunchy" parent.

18. I have tried three different work at home jobs and I finally found one that works for me!

19. I take a lot of photos. I can't help it!

20. I dont like the feel of jeans and would rather wear sweat pants material. Jeans just are not comfortable for me.

21. There are very few people I call my friend.

22. I am an iPhone owner and some days wish I was not.

23. I love to socialize and feel out of place if I am not talking to someone.

24. I think most of my family is nuts and I am glad some of them don't call or talk to me very often. It's sad but true.

25. My body is always in constant pain and has been for the last 3 years almost.

26. I am clumsy. I run into walls, tables, doors and trip over my own two feet.

27. I cannot have my feet covered when I sleep.

28. I almost always check the mail right when I know it is usually delivered each day.

29. I dislike being in the rain but I love sitting in bed listening to it. 

30. I am no good at taking pills. I never have been and have come to terms that I never will be.

Just Another Pregnant Woman

Before I got pregnant, every pregnancy announcement, gender announcement, and birth announcement made me a bitter person. I would get jealous. I would get angry. I would get happy and sad all at the same time.

I always caught myself saying "well, there's another pregnant woman" or "why can't that be me?" just to name a few. 

Now that's me....just another pregnant woman making others a bit more bitter, sad, and jealous that it is not them in my shoes.

But if you know my whole story and not just bits and pieces, maybe it would change your thoughts just a little. 

You see, I have suffered multiple losses to get where we are today. I have grieved for my children for years and will grieve for them for years to come. Yes, I have a beautiful daughter here with me, but it doesn't change the fact that out there somewhere, are my other children. 

So next time you see another pregnancy announcement, before you begin judging that woman, please keep in mind you don't know the path she followed to get where she is today.